Christmas Past

Can't recall feeling this melancholy after Christmas Day, but I do.

Can't recall ever wanting to hide out in a cozy cabin by myself this time of year, but I do.

Can't recall ever loving my family more than I do right now, but yes, I do.

And while those last two sentences seem to contradict each other, it's true.


Perhaps it's the letdown or the stress I own or the knowing that others have such a heavy burden-way moreso than I.

It leaves me feeling ungrateful, guilt-ridden & looking outside my heart for band-aid like remedies.

No new approaches or new-fangled ways to get outta this funk-other than the same ways I have come to know through experiences.

mleh.